2009

Hello sweets! It has been a while, and I am sorry for that. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and a happy happy new year! My Christmas was so beautiful this year, the day ended much too quickly and I wish I could do it all again, but there is another year I must wait first! 2009 is actually here and I can't believe it, how fast everything flies is crazy.

Does anyone have any new years resolutions?

I don't normally make them, I always think that I can change any time I want to and New Year does not need to be the time to do it. But this year I have thought I feel ready for some resolutions, I want to live my life totally to the full and a new year is the perfect time to start. I saw the film Yes man the other day and that has motivated me to say yes to more experiences (not as often as he did, I would not result to doing things with pensioners!!) but to live life more.

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Have you ever had a moment when you’re with the one person in the world you want to be with and the wind is blowing through your hair and the song that just describes your entire soul happens to come on and then the person you happen to want to be with happens to love the same song and suddenly you realize you’re listening to it together and no matter how crazy your life has gotten, there’s this one moment, this perfect moment where you could just say that no matter what happens nothing can take this moment away from me… and then something does.
- Roswell You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.
- Grey's Anatomy
Sometimes i wonder if anything's absolute anymore. Is There Still right and wrong? Good and bad? Truth and lies? Or is everything negotiable,left to interpretation, grey. Sometimes we're forced to bend the truth, transform it, cause we're faced with things that are not of our own making. And sometimes things simply catch up to us.
- One Tree Hill
Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.
- Sex and the City

I used to be afraid of so many things…That I’d never grow up. That I’d be trapped in the same place for all eternity. That my dreams would forever be shy of my reach. It’s true what they say. Time plays tricks on you. One day you’re dreaming, the next your dream has become your reality. And now that this scared little girl no longer follows me wherever I go, I miss her. I do. ‘Cause there are things I wanna tell her– to relax, to lighten up, that it is all going to be ok. I want her to know that meeting people who like you, who understand you, who actually accept you for who you are, will become an increasingly rare occurrence. Jen, Jack, Audrey, Andie, Pacey, and Dawson. These people who contributed to who I am, they are with me wherever I go, and as history gets rewritten in small ways with each passing day, my love for them only grows. Because the truth is… it was the best of times. Mistakes were made, hearts were broken, harsh lessons learned, but all of that has receded into fond memory now. How does it happen? Why are we so quick to forget the bad and romanticize the good? Maybe it’s because we need to believe that the time we spent together actually meant something, that we were there for each other in a time in our lives that defined us all, a time in our lives that we will never forget. I can’t swear this is exactly how it happened. But this is how it felt.
- Dawsons Creek

Photos from weheartit

beautiful

Some things you don’t know you miss until, out of nowhere, you have them back, or have them back but back all wrong…The way, after a dream, where you’ve kissed someone who, in real life, you’ll never kiss again, maybe you’ve never kissed at all, you wake up and realize, in the throbbing pit of your stomach, how impossible it is to live without kissing them again.

At this moment, there are 6 billion, 4 hundred, 71 million, 8 hundred, 18 thousand, 6 hundred, 71 people in the world. Some are running scared.. some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day.. others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good, and some are good.. struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls — and sometimes.. all you need is 1.

I like to think that somewhere out there, on a planet exactly like ours, two people exactly like you and me made totally different choices and that, somewhere, we're still together. That's enough for me.

If you've never felt your ribs pushing against your skin. If you know when you're next going to eat. If you slept under a roof last night. If you know how to use a computer. If you can see this picture.
If you can read these words. If you know someone you can share this with. You have a lot to be thankful for.

Quotes one and two, photo one and two: here
Quotes three and four, photos three and four: here

i am alive

Hello guys. Long time no post (just over a week i think) i have been sososososox100000 busy!! Ive done so much overtime at work, then had college and on top of that I have also been ill. But all is good and i have a day off tomorrow horray! I have been looking at tumblr sites a lot recently, found some really good ones there are some amazing quotes! So i have added a few to the links that you should check out.

'Awkward moments define me. I’d sleep all day if I could. I lack the capability to keep my mouth shut. Yeah, everyone has bad days, but I seem to have more than my fair share. If you don’t like me, don’t act like you do. I swear, it offends me less. I’ve made mistakes and I’ve let people take advantage of me and I’ve accepted way less than I deserve. But, I’ve learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back, and people who will never be sorry, I’ll know better next time and I won’t settle for anything less than I deserve.'
photo+quote from here

'Gratitude. Appreciation. Giving thanks. No matter which words you use, it all means the same thing: happiness. We’re supposed to be happy and grateful- for friends, for family. Happy just to be alive.' Grey's Anatomy found here


'I believe that two people are connected at the heart and it doesn’t matter what you do or who you are or where you live. There are no boundaries or barriers if two people are destined to be together.'
Julia Roberts quote/the photo above found here


'We deny that we’re tired. We deny that we’re scared. We deny how badly we want to succeed and most importantly, we deny that we’re in denial. We only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe. And it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while, the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can’t recognize the truth right in front of our faces.'
photo/quote found here

100 Ways To Be A Love Letter To The Universe
from here
photo from here
Do your lips up sticky, sparkly & sweet. Then blow kisses. Say thank you. Allow other people to inspire you. Share your bliss. Smile — even if you’re shy, even if you have bad teeth, even if it scares you. Hold someone’s hand. Be honest. Volunteer your time. Love yourself. Do your best. Learn how to balance having respect for other people’s decisions & being true to yourself. Tell people how much you like them. Send unexpected gifts. Talk to strangers. Do favours. Let go. Be generous. Eat whatever you want without guilt. Don’t think about other people’s definitions of success, beauty or happiness. Make your own rules. Write your own guidebook. Count your blessings. Never stop trying to improve. Be your own superhero. Aim higher. Contribute. Create spaces for other people to enjoy. Sleep in. Let other people sleep in, too. Be compassionate. Listen. Give yourself time off. Be enthusiastic. Choose happiness. Create. Follow your passion. Connect. Compliment people. Spend time with people who make you feel good about yourself. Surprise yourself. Appreciate the people who support you. Take photos; document everything. Have a plan. Know your patterns. Be in the present. Laugh. Get close. Move through your fear. Challenge yourself. Keep it simple. Turn up the music. Realise your own freedom. Relax. Flirt. Dress up in some small way every day. Even if it’s just a good pair of knickers or a coat of death-defying mascara. Be different. Be genuine. Allow yourself to change & evolve. Dream big. Believe that you can manifest anything. Take responsibility. Treat everyone the same way — from your lover to your mother to your postman. Appreciate your past for having made you the person you are. Talk about how you feel. Dance. Sing. Let go of guilt. Treat your lovers with respect. Admit your flaws. …& come up with a plan to remedy them. Surprise people. Set yourself a really huge goal. Then achieve it & set another one. Kiss. A lot. Remember that trouble doesn’t last. Be still. Look at the stars. Be as ridiculous as you like. Trust that you are loved. Stay curious. Charm people. Give real hugs. Bat your eyelashes. Forget yourself. Reach out. Flatter people. Get drunk on life. Release your expectations of other people. Allow them to be who they are, & appreciate them regardless. Stretch. Listen to your instincts. Make eye contact. Keep your word. Talk about real things. Discover yourself. Speak up. Let life excite you & lead you astray. Delight in every day. Don’t be afraid. Just love.

have a break

I haven't had any time for the internet over the last few days, I would say my week has been busy but I think that would be an understatement. Chaotic is more like it! But I have decided that I should have a well earned break!
How are you all? :)
I did get chance to pop online during college and read comments from the last post, and they were so comforting. Just knowing that other people can relate to how you are feeling can make things easier because you know that it's not just you that it is happening to.
I do feel slightly better about it but I won't ramble on and bore you all with the details.

Today I bought some of these from Topshop. I have wanted some for a while and I can't wait to wear them with oversized tee's!

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While I am writing this I am watching A Little Princess, which is such a beautiful film that I have not seen in the longest time.

Photos are from here

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"One day, you fall for this boy and he touches you with his fingers and he burns holes in your skin with his mouth and it hurts to look at him and it hurts when you don’t and it feels like someone’s cut you open with a piece of glass."

"I can’t quite pinpoint what it is about him but I don’t think of anyone else. No one the same way, not in the least."

I want this sort of thing, so so badly.

Photos from the first and second of the Diary of a Crush book series by Sarra Manning.
Quotes from here.

all the girls

This goes out to all the girls
(and partly to all the guys who should know better)

Here’s to all those girls who used to be his number one.

The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check your cellphone the next morning and be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, “I only want to be your friend”, one day, then listened to him say that he loves and misses you, and the next when he doesn’t want to be anything at all. Here’s to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change.

We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, got crap from our parents, and even snuck around to see him even for a while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us.

Here’s to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here’s for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn’t possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn’t treat us the way we should be treated.

Here’s for the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest everything, only to hear him say that he couldn’t see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn’t believe that he could do this to us again.

This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn’t bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder “what if”.

This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, and cried during the entire conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us.

When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn’t mean it.
This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with.

This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, and get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that “You’re just not the one for me.” or maybe, “things were going too fast, I’m just not ready.” (Then later on find out he has a damn girlfriend already)

Here’s to the girls who couldn’t cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn’t bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an “I told you so.” The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, their beds, and their dreams again.

We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that.

Here’s for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave one thought about them.

Here’s for the time that he took to waste, breaking your heart … again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here’s for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better.

This is for those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist.

Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes it’s better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt all over again.

Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. When your song comes on the radio, turn the station.

When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don’t answer the door.

Think of all the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the HELL he was.Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn’t him, and realized that once again, he hadn’t called when he said he was going to.

One day, you’ll find a guy who’s worth all the tears, but he won’t make you cry. You may think that you’ll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will.

It’s gonna hurt like hell, and it’s going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal

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I found this at
This is my heart. It is a good heart.

I am not currently in a situation like this. I have been, know people who have been and people that are. I am just waiting for someone to come along, hoping that someone will. But I do know that being in a situation like that can be one of the hardest feelings to deal with and hardest feelings to get over. Those words are so beautiful and so true, so I had to share them even if some people do not agree.

live laugh love

I want to spend all of my days laughing and smiling, speaking to the people that matter, watching the clouds float dreamily above me and finding pictures in them, singing and dancing in the rain, appreciating the sunshine by spending all day outdoors, discovering new films, music and books, cuddling up at night with a hot chocolate spending quality time with my family, painting my nails bright colours, dressing up just because I feel like it, helping people that need it, showing my friends and family how much they mean to me, loving with all of my heart, discovering new places, meeting new people and living each day like it could be my last.

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Influence

"Sometimes you feel everything and nothing all at once. Sometimes you’ll find yourself smiling while missing someone at the same time. At times you can absolutely love a person, all the while wanting to hate them so badly. Life comes without guarantee’s, except that smiling will brighten your face, laughing will enhance your eyes, and falling in love will change your life."

From This is my heart. It is a good heart.

The Olsen's have definetely created a storm around the world, and it isn't hard to understand why. They are both beautiful women who are known worldwide as fashion icons, designers, actresses, authors.. is there anything these two can't do?
I am so so excited to read Influence. It isn't out in the UK for another few weeks, so any American's count yourselves lucky that it is already out there! I shall be rushing to buy a copy on the day that it comes out, but the only problem I have is which cover do I choose?!

Anyone have a favourite Olsen? Some people can't tell the difference, others love them both but I tend to alternate between them.. At the moment my favourite is Ashley, I love her style so much. Her outfit at the book signing above is gorgeous. I would very happily change places with either one of them given the chance!
Anyone who has already read the book what do you think?
Photos are from Mary-Kate and Ashley Fan

problem solved

I have had problems with my blog so I have decided to start again due to troubles posting for some reason. So, here I am. Sorry about any inconveniences, if anyone has exchanged links with me previously and is reading this I would be so, so grateful if you could update the link to this one, if it's not too much trouble. Thank you

Okay now the boring bit is out of the way! I am in the most wonderful mood today! I woke up feeling good and then had a fabulous day, so all is lovely :) I was in college all day, got a good mark on my English essay, I love English so that made me happy. The day also got really sunny so I didn't need my coat walking home, and looking at all the beautiful gold and red leaves decorating the pavements made it an enjoyable walk. The only small problem at the moment is I have 2 huge projects that need to be in next week, so it shall be a working weekend for me.
All I need now is a nice cup of tea.

“Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.” - Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and the City

EDIT: AHH. It's later and I have just done my header picture. I am quite proud of myself as it is the first thing I have done on Photoshop, not the best of things but anywho. It is of the lovely Kate Nash and the image was from goooooogle.